Friday, February 28, 2003

hello, todae is a totally boring dae. lol. later got breaking ya. heard from ben that got a lot of pp going to break todae, some more got breaking girls. hope they are good lo, can ask them to teach me, haha. yesterdae waas rather fun ya. a totally alone dae. it was like back to the old times except that my mind would wander back to memories of her. i went to the gym for the first time since many months, but it wasnt that bad at all. think becoz of work at crystal jade, i became strong in a way too. den i went swimming. at bedok swimming complex, for the first time since many years. i remember old times where i had swimming lessons there. it was pretty scary, the swimming lesson i mean, coz last time i used to have asthma, but den the coach kept wanting us to swim laps after laps. remember that i couldnt finish a lap at a go last time. the only fun part abt the swimming lessons was the one where we learnt to use the pyjames to float. that was fun, but soon i had to quit swimming coz of pri 4 steaming exams. it was a refreshing experience to be able to swim there again. then when i came back home, slept like a log for hours, haha. the previous dae wasnt that bad too. went out with a fren and did many things. i certainly had fun, but still a little expensive. lol.

hmmm, going to set off soon, going to meet my fren for lunch first.

i guess me and my ex are settling down rather good liao. i'm accepting the fact that she isnt there for me anymore. can feel that she seems not want to have anything to do me anymore, haha. hmmm, it happens i guess, everyone tells me so. think all we need is time in everything we do. still hope to have her back, but think its impossible. me going to talk to her abt something later. think its good news for her. wonder if she will cry. maybe she will if its a few weeks ago, but don think she still have that much feelings for me to cry again. its always better to make things clear isnt it. have a nice life ahead, jas. i'm sure u will find someone u like and someone that treat u better soon. relationships arent scary at all, k. they are the most wonderful things that i ever had. seven daes more to getting my results. think i'll start mine count down soon.

few more months to getting to join the force. envy my fren to be able to wait for calls that her boyfren tries to call when he's inside. i don have anyone to call, haha. think i'll call my mum. think it will make her happy? i think so lo. maybe i call some good frens too. maybe, i'll have a new girlfren by den, haha. hmmm, thats unless that new girlfren is her again. love her so. tkae care, jas. u are everything i had ever wanted and everything i hope to have again.

yurs truly, bertie
gilbert at 9:43 PM [comment]

{I hear voices, voices only half as humane as mine..}